It has been a better day today. I am learning that this grieving process is an ebb and flow kind of thing. The strangest things allow grief to roll in – a random sock, the dirty PJ shirt I found stuffed under her bed. Knowing that she wore those things last… I found myself hugging that shirt and breathing deeply, looking for her scent. But it wasn’t there. It was just a rumpled shirt.
It would be so very easy to allow the sadness to suck me in, but I cannot do that. Grace and Cole – they count on me to be steady. Thankfully, I have discovered the perfect weapon to fight grief. Thankfulness. It’s hard to stay sad when you are saying all the wonderful things you are thankful for. The more I choose to praise the Lord, the lighter my burden becomes. I’m able to talk about my sweet girl, remember her, love her still. It is such an amazing gift.
Grace and Cole are doing pretty well. Both are back to school, working to figure out their new normal. I’m so proud of the way they continue to push forward each day. Cole still struggles. He just misses Kayleigh so very much. But we know God is good and trust him completely!
Romans 21:4 –
4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”
Even in grief there are so many pace we can chose to be thankful for. Please continue to pray for each of us as we find our feet.