It’s nearly midnight and it just registered what day it is… the 15th. It’s been four months today since our Kayleigh went to heaven. It is with great joy that I can say today has been a great day. Unlike the previous, monthly, anniversaries- today didn’t cause me grief. What a beautiful blessing. As I sit and write tonight it feels like a tiny step has been taken toward healing.
Yet as I think about that, every step of every day is actually movement toward healing. Each twist and turn, good day and bad day, is another piece of the puzzle. And if you have ever done a puzzle, you know just how important each piece is. Nothing is worse than completing a puzzle only to find a hole where a single piece is missing. Yes, you may be looking at 999 pieces all neatly fitted together, but I promise, your eye will always be drawn to the hole. Sometimes it feels like life is 1,000 pieces scattered on a table. Jumbled up, upside down, looking like nothing. But time and patience, along with some determination will be rewarded with a beautiful, completed picture.
One of the most amazing thing I have witnessed these past few months is how God has brought each piece of the puzzle that we need to us at exactly the right moment. Not early and not late – perfect timing. I’ll admit, sometimes my type A personality would really like for the Lord to bring things in a little faster – just so I feel a little more comfortable. You know, a little cushion in case things go wrong. Hmmm…. if I trust the Lord completely, why do I need a cushion for anything?
That my friends is one of the lessons that Lord has been patiently teaching me. Each time he drops a piece into place I marvel at His goodness. And each time something happens that I don’t understand, I remind myself of that goodness and I am reassured that God has everything under control, even if I can’t see it.
30 God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection.
14 But I am trusting you, O Lord, saying, “You are my God!”
This picture was taken 10 months ago today. I can remember what she felt like in my arms and how much fun we had that day. Thank you Heather Mitchell!