May 6, 2017
As I said last night, each day approaching Kayleigh’s birthday is a little more difficult. The beautiful thing about difficult days is that it makes God so much easier to see. For starters, hard days make me appreciate the good days more. Also, when good things happen in hard days, I find myself stopping to thank the Lord for His beautiful blessings.
We took the children to a movie last night. It was one I know Kayleigh would have loved. As we rode home, listening to Grace and Cole repeat every funny part, I could hear Kayleigh’s voice. I knew she would have been laughing along with them – quoting lines, dancing, being loud. I found myself so incredibly thankful for my children. Thankful for the two I can still hold and touch, and thankful for the one that changed me. God used my Baby Duck to break me, so He could reshape me as He intended me to be, and so He could receive the glory.
Today God blessed us with small things through the day. Reminders that He is here, that He loves us. A precious woman stopped us in a store to let us know Kayleigh’s story has encouraged her to read her bible more. Another precious friend answered a need for race day. And I came home this afternoon to the most beautiful keepsake. One I can keep close to my heart.
Yes, the days are getting harder, but my God is bigger than hardship. He is good, kind, and full of grace and mercy. How thankful I am to be His child.
17 For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”
What a treasure this was to come home to.