January 18, 2017

Hello friends,

We are headed to bed tonight setting our alarms for 4:30am in order to get Cole to the hospital on time for surgery. Heaven help me. My husband, family, and past roommates can attest to the fact that I am NOT a morning person. But, I find myself looking forward to tomorrow because it feels like this one last medical hurdle will be behind us. There is still much to pray for, easy surgery, little pain, quick healing – but I can’t but feel hope too. Hope that these persistent medical issues will be behind us.

I found myself flipping back in my devotion book tonight and landing on Jan 14th. The title is “Everything For Good.” And the verse was Romans 8:28

28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

I love that verse. I’ve held on to it oh so tightly these last months. It’s amazing just how much those words have grown to mean to be. Before Kayleigh’s diagnosis they were just words. Words I believed, but that I had not experienced in action. But now, those words are threaded into the fibers of my being. I have seen my gentle Father take my ashes and broken pieces and fashion them into something altogether different and so much better.

The words “God is absolutely sovereign” have been proven true in our lives over and over again. And when your heart chooses to rest in the promise of God’s sovereignty you discover you are able to endure every situation with confidence. Confidence that God has everything under control. That no trial is able to slip through the cracks without God knowing. And somehow, those trials, while sometimes heart wrenching and painful, are the tools that are being used to refine you. To shape you into the person God is calling you to be.

So as I sit here tonight, yes, I believe everything is being used for good. Kayleigh’s cancer, Grace’s cyst, Cole’s lipoma… I have no doubt the devil intended those things to break us, but he will not prevail. Our God is so much bigger than that and we trust Him completely. Everyday we are seeing God’s hand guiding and directing is down a path we never wanted or expected. But wow, the path is amazing. It’s not all smooth sailing, but it certainly is being blessed and we are thankful.

We would appreciate You prayers for Cole tomorrow and for quick, easy, no complication healing for our guy.

Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜

I visited Kayleigh today and took her flowers. I know she isn’t there under that dirt, but it’s still my place to talk to her. I told her all about her amazing birthday party we are planning. I know she would have loved it.

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