I am happy to report that after a blue feeling day yesterday, God’s mercies were indeed new his morning. I had grand plans of house cleaning scripted for today, but God had different plans. And as always, His were better than mine!
We kicked off this morning with Cole’s Pinewood Derby for Boy Scouts. My little man entered a purple KB 14 car in Kayleigh’s memory. We had a great time watching him race and just enjoy being with friends. Any moment I get to watch him just be a kids does my heart good. I know he struggles with making sense of Kayleigh’s death, as well as the grief and pain of loss. He seems to be doing pretty well, he just seems too old sometimes.
Not only did Cole have a great time racing, but Tim and I had a wonderful time talking with another St. Jude family. There is just something about being around people that have been in your shoes. The relationship is just easy. It’s easy to talk, they understand, and somehow that helps you heal.
Mid afternoon we made our way downtown to a beautiful, quiet little park where we have the privilege of watching two of our friends get married. Kayleigh’s story brought them into our life and we are so very thankful for them both. My prayer is that God will bless their marriage as they walk together, and continue to learn to always walk closer to Him.
For dinner we had an impromptu family cook out at my parents. We roasted hot dogs and marshmallows and watched a movie. It was so wonderful to just be still for a little bit.
It’s also wonderful to see just how the Lord ministered to my heart today. He took my plans and rerouted them in order to refill my soul. He knew I needed another mom to talk to that understood where I am. He knew that seeing people we love pledge their love to each other would give me joy. And He knew that time with my family would help restore my balance. He knew exactly what I needed and provided it without my asking. He truly is my good, good Father.
24 I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking about their needs, I will go ahead and answer their prayers!
1 John 3:1a
3 See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are!