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July 6, 2017 – Changes

Hello friends!

As many of you know, I resigned from my job mid-June in order to run the foundation, spend more time writing, and taking time to build this new ministry. Through our journey with Kayleigh, God has allowed us to experience His amazing goodness first-hand. By the world’s standards, our story should be one of grief, defeat and despair – but because of our great God, this story is one of faith, hope, peace, and joy. Joy that needs to be shared. So many people around us are struggling each day, we want to be a light of encouragement and hope.

But we are still going to need your support and prayers on this new journey! Especially since we are learning and growing as we go along. My first question for you all today is about the frequency of posting. I think every day may be too much, is once a week better, or twice a week? Would you please share your thoughts with me? You can email your thoughts to .

Thank you for continuing to stand with us. This is Kayleigh’s legacy, one of hope.



July 4, 2017 – Happy 4th!

Memories can be such a bittersweet thing. I am so thankful for the precious reminders, but they twist my heart a little at the same time. Of course, how could they not? As we celebrate the 4th, I remember so many fun holidays. We always shoot big fireworks and enjoy ice cream, and today was no different on that front – but we were missing our spunky little girl.

The most beautiful gift the Lord gives us each day, is that the sweet continues to outweigh the bitter. Whenever I feel myself teetering on the edge of despair, I am reminded of our perfect 7.5 year with Kayleigh, of the amazing children I still have the joy to parent, of our close knit family, and friends that – well my friend Taylor said it best, we’re “fram-ily.”

Yes, my heart twinges tonight as I remember what is no longer with me, but our separation is but a blink in the eye of eternity. So tonight as you tuck your babies in, give them one more kiss, one more hug, one more minute before bed, and eat the ice cream first. Take lots of pictures and treasure every moment.

Psalm 90:12 – NIV
Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

Until later,


June 27, 2017 – Be Positive!

Hello Friends,

I’ve spent the past few days writing about hope and choosing joy. As always, one of the main themes that keeps coming back to me is choices. While we cannot control the things that happen to us, we do get to decide how we are going to respond to each circumstance. We get to chose our attitude.

One of the best pieces of advice I received on this journey came from my grandfather. It was the day of Kayleigh’s diagnosis, we had just returned home and were having a huge birthday party for her at our house. Papa pulled me to the side, and in his gruff, matter-of-fact voice said, “‘Carrow, I know this is hard, but you HAVE to stay positive!” I know he didn’t hand those words out lightly. He knows the grief of losing a child, how it never goes away. But he also knows how to survive it.

I don’t think he realizes just what an impact those words have had on my life and the lives of so many more. You see, he is the reason my posts look for the positive in every day. He is the reason I began looking for the good and sharing hope. Because of his guidance, and looking for the positive, I found the best. I found the peace, hope, and joy that can only come from Jesus. My faith grew from Bible truths I had read about, to truths I experienced first hand.

Maybe you are in a spot where you need some encouragement. Well friend, let me tell you, you’ve GOT to stay positive!

2 Thessalonians 5:16-18
16 Always be joyful. 17 Never stop praying. 18 Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.

I leave you tonight with this Chuck Swindoll quote…

“Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”
– Charles Swindoll

Until later,

One year ago today. Another memory to be thankful for

George Nancarrow, my Papa , with 5 of his 9 great-grandchildren

June 13, 2017 – God never wastes a hurt

Hello Friends,

You know, sometimes I sit down to write and words pour out of me like Niagara Falls after a good rain, other times I’m more like the Mojave desert. During Kayleigh’s journey it was easy, I would fill you in on how she was doing, and let you know how God was helping us through. But now as we get a little further out, I find that I want the focus to be less on our family and more on this amazing God we serve.

Tonight was one of those nights where I was struggling. I had many ideas but none seems like just the “right” one. So I opened my Bible and just started reading. I have discovered no matter the upheaval going on around me, if I will sit down with the Lord’s word, and open my heart to what He has to say, He will speak to me through the scriptures. I don’t always find the answers I am looking for right away, but I do find His incredible peace.

After reading a while I had an abundance of peace in my heart but still no words. I was about to lay my face down on the opening page of Ephesians when a quote jumped out at me, right there on the page. It isn’t part of scripture but a modern day authors introduction to the book of Ephesians.

“God does not waste our suffering. Life in a fallen world entails human suffering, but never without a divine purpose.”

Wow, talk about a perspective change. Suffering certainly isn’t something anyone aspires to, but it is a part of everyone’s life. Sometimes our suffering is huge and immediately life altering, other times it is a daily burden that becomes increasingly heavy. Sometimes you can see a persons suffering and other times it is well disguised. It comes in all shapes and sizes and affects every age, gender, ethnic, and socioeconomic group. It also is not a very welcome topic of conversation, it’s just too sad for many people to deal with.

But… if you can change your view of suffering, and start looking for God’s divine purpose in the hurts, it begins to change your heart. I am living proof that is true. It doesn’t take the hurt away, but it does change my perspective. It is no longer about what is happening to me, rather it becomes more about what God can accomplish through me. He becomes my focus, not the storm, and that is where I find peace.

I am echoing Paul’s prayer for the Ephesians for each of you reading this…

Ephesians 1:18
18 I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.

God loves you, so. And He has called you to a specific purpose, one that is perfectly tailored, only to you. I pray you will choose to follow Him and be faithful.

Until tomorrow,

I love this picture of my silly monkey. It was taken a year ago today. So much has changed but my love for her remains.

June 12, 2017

June 12, 2017

It’s amazing what a difference a year makes. As I flipped through my journal for this time last year, it is filled with me begging the Lord for wisdom, direction, and Kayleigh’s healing. Now, a year later, I am preparing to speak to a group of women about how good God is – even when he doesn’t answer your prayers as you had hoped He would.

I found this quote by Oswald Chambers in my journal tonight…

“If you yourself do not cut the lines that tie you to the dock, God will have to use a storm to sever them and to send you out to sea.”

Yikes! This certainly isn’t the path I would have chosen for my life. I was happily meandering along my way, enjoying life and my family – but I wasn’t doing anything to further the Gospel of Christ. I wasn’t willing to cut myself loose from the dock. God doesn’t call us to stay in our safe, insulated, comfortable worlds. He calls us to walk by faith, trust His plan, and share His goodness and love wherever we go.

I pray you will choose to cut yourself loose from the dock, and allow the Lord to take you where He is calling you to be.

Deuteronomy 13:4
4 Serve only the Lord your God and fear him alone. Obey his commands, listen to his voice, and cling to him.

Until later,

I am looking forward to sharing Friday night, June 23rd. Thank you Five Points Christian Church for inviting me.