Monthly Archive: March 2017

Dear Baby Duck,

I miss you tonight. I miss you always, but these last few days I’ve spent surrounded by your softball friends and coaches. I’ve helped register and draft the teams for this year. I’ve watched each girl come in, growing up, and looking so much older than last year. And I miss you. I can’t believe this year there is no need to go look for “pretty” cleats and that you aren’t here to try to talk me into the pink bat – just because it’s pink.

Daddy and I had a fun meeting this afternoon with some guys from Huntsville Havoc. We did an interview with them, sharing your story and talking about what St. Jude means to our family. It was really wonderful to talk about you. I even shared some of your videos so they could get a glimpse of your spunky attitude. See, the Havoc is having a special event at this Saturday night’s game. They have had special jersey’s made and your KB 14 is going to be on them. After the game they will auction off the jerseys to benefit St. Jude. It is going to be awesome! Oh how I wish you could be there. You would have loved everything about it. But Daddy, Grace, Cole and I along with a bunch of family and friends will make sure you are well represented and remembered.

I know you are having the most amazing time in heaven. I would never ask you to come back to this messed up world, not even if I had the power to make it happen. I do find myself wishing sometimes that Jesus would hurry up and come back to get us. That way we could all be together. Not having you with me leaves a pretty big hole in my heart. But then I remember, you story is changing people’s loves. They are learning to trust and follow Jesus all because of you. And as much as I miss you, I know it is more important for me to tell others about Jesus so they have the opportunity to go to heaven too. If Jesus came back now so many would be lost.

So, we will all keep on sharing your story. Even though I am sad and miss you so, I will continue to find joy in my savior. I will continue to tell people about my beautiful, spunky, sparkly, baby duck. I will continue to be thankful for your life and the lives of Grace and Cole. You made me a better person, mommy, and wife. I wouldn’t trade a moment of my time with you for all the treasure in the world. Because of you, we can help others.

I miss you Baby Duck. I love you so,
Mommy 💜

Psalm 147.3
3 He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.

Isaiah 61:1
1 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed.

I just felt the need to talk to my little ducky tonight. Grief and loss are difficult things.

Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜

Wonderful memories from our softball family last year. Her love note message to the All Star team that drafted her and the. Night she received the MVP award. I hope this link will allow you to watch the videos