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July 3, 2016

What an incredibly beautiful day yesterday was!

Anna, her family, and my friend Kelli were all at our house relaxing in the pool and visiting. It was so wonderful to have more time with our precious friends!

Kayleigh is happy to be home! We are seeing that she is tired and fatigues more quickly, but that is to be expected from the radiation. So we are trying to slow down a little and just relax.

Prayer Requests
1.) Complete healing this side of heaven.
2.) Clear scans when we return August 1st – this is a big, bold, audacious prayer!
3.) For Kayleigh’s strength to return
4.) For Tim and I as we use these few days to align all the details for our big family vacation. We leave Friday and we have some big things to get in order. We need God to clear the path and make the necessary things easy.

It’s a beautiful Sunday morning! I hope where ever you are that you’re making time to sit and talk with the Lord. If you don’t have anything to say then just sit and listen!

Psalm 118:24
This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it.

Much love,
‘Carrow💜

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July 1, 2016 – p.m.

What an amazing day this has been! We made it home just in time to have a quick bite to eat and head to the State Troopers fight hanger. Kayleigh was so excited to ride in a helicopter! I thought it was pretty awesome too. The troopers made her an honorary airmen with her own hat, coin, patch and badge. They even gave her permission to start arresting people!

We were delivered directly to the softball field where our awesome softball family had planned an amazing night for Kayleigh. People filled the park all dressed in purple to celebrate our sweet girl. She was made an honorary member of the UAB, UAH, Wallace State and Hartselle High school softball teams. Auburn sent autographed softballs, t-shirts, and special trophies for both Kayleigh and Grace. Senator Author Orr named her the state of Alabama’s “tough test softball player”. USSSA awarded her an awesome purple trophy. The Sherrie’s office made her an honorary deputy. The DARE officer gave her the DARE bear to keep. And then Magic Moments came to give our family an amazing Disney Cruise.

To put a beautiful cherry on top of this day we had some additional special visitors. Kayleigh’s sweet friend Anna and her entire family surprised us at the park tonight! Grace, Cole & Kayleigh were all
so thrilled to have them here. I was so thrilled to have Kelli, one of my dearest friends from high school here to share the night. My heart is so full!

Truly, I cannot tell you what a beautiful day this has been all together. Even the local news station came out to do a story on Kayleigh. She was so excited to see herself on TV :).

Thank you to our wonderful friends who made tonight one that will always be remembered. We love you all so very much!

I am attaching the link to the news story they did tonight below.
Prayers for Kayleigh: softball player gets big surprise as team supports her fight against brain tumor

Prayers for Kayleigh: softball player gets big surprise as team supports her fight against brain tumor

Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow 💜

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July 1, 2016 – Morning

Good Morning!

So sorry for the delayed post, we played with our friends until late last night trying to squeeze out every last possible moment with them. By the time we made it to our room this mama was wiped out. I tucked Kayleigh in and crashed myself. Thankfully, Tim powered through and stayed up until the wee hours of the morning getting our lives from the last 7 weeks packed up and crammed in the car. Actually two cars, we had to get mom to come help us get home. Wow, we can accumulate a ridiculous amount of stuff in that amount of time!

Today is so bitter-sweet for us. We are SO thankful for how well Kayleigh has weathered radiation. It hasn’t diminished her shine, not one single iota. Honestly, she is probably shining brighter because of the amazing people that have been loving on her and investing in her here at St. Jude. I just don’t have the words to describe how wonderful this place is, and if you’ve been following this blog long you know I have plenty of words :)!

So this morning’s post is our thank you post. I don’t usually use names because I feel the need to protect people but today I have to. These people have made a difference in our lives every, single, day that will stay with us always.

Ms. Jenny, thank you for always greeting Kayleigh by name and being ready with a sweet word and a smile each morning when we checked in.

Ms. Gina, on our first day she was our tour guide. She made what could have been an overwhelmingly stressful situation comfortable. Escorting us from appointment to appointment making sure we didn’t get lost and making sure we had our feet under us. After that day she always had a big smile for us anywhere we saw her.

Ms. Diane, she was in charge of Kayleigh’s MRI in the very beginning. That was a scary day but she was bright and upbeat. Even weeks later she had a hug for all of us, she had not forgotten us 💜!

Ms. Jo Ann, our awesome triage nurse that is excellent at lab draws and keeping Kayleigh smiling even when being stuck.

Our Child Life Family
Ms. Ashley, thank you for making the scary things not so scary. For talking about losing hair and not feeling good. For talking to Grace and Cole too, knowing it’s hard for them to be left behind and that they don’t understand everything, giving them a safe place to talk. You were Kayleigh’s first safe place at St. Jude. When things were scary she would say “it’s ok, I can talk to Ms. Ashley”. Just knowing you were there if she needed you was enough.

Ms. Amy, thank you for always being a bubbly bright spot. We always look forward to seeing you and sharing all of our amazing radiation exploits with you. Thank you for thinking of nerf guns, they have give us some very fun memories and made radiation even more fun for Kayleigh.

Mr. Shawn, thank you for showing up at just the right moments to keep Kayleigh laughing and being sassy, even during the not so fun part of getting stuck. We’ve very much enjoyed sparring over our respective SEC teams. You’ve been just as wonderful for Tim and I as you have been for Kayleigh. For you and only you this Roll Tide girl will say “Geaux Tigers” – but just this once, and not out loud!

Our E-Clinic Family
Ms. Jackie at the desk, thank you for always greeting us each day with a smile. You’re always friendly, ready to laugh, making us feel at home and just sarcastic enough to appreciate us :). I promise I won’t use the word “quiet” around you ever again!

Heather, our awesome nurse, thank you for always being in a good mood, for being patient to answer questions and always being helpful.

Nicole, our NP – I don’t have enough words. Thank you for being amazingly competent but compassionate at the same time. Kind and soft spoken but sassy enough to appreciate the princess that is Kayleigh. Good natured and funny – watching you do an ear exam upside down while hanging off a hospital bed because Kayleigh was tired and didn’t want to get out of her wagon was one of my favorite days. Thank you for always being steady which made us feel safe.

Dr. Robinson, our gifted neuro oncologist that is never in a hurry. I know he has many patients to see each day but he always made time to answer our questions thoroughly (and boy do I have many questions). This diagnosis is a terrible one and he knows that far better than us, he’s talked honestly with us about treatment and different trials. He has encouraged us to look at all the information and make the decision WE think is best for Kayleigh. No pressure, No expectations, just for us to make the decision we think is best. From the very first day Dr. R’s confident, calm and steady personality have been exactly what we needed.

Our Radiation Family
Ms. Dee Dee, thank you for always scheduling us so we could have as much time at home as possible. And for never fussing if a called asking to change something.

Mr. Chance, Ms. Olivia, Mr. George & Ms. Jenny – you four wonderful people made radiation Kayleigh’s favorite place in the hospital. She talks about you all in every day conversation like you are her very best friends. You guys have taken a treatment that could have been scary and made it into the highlight of all of our days. Guys, thank you for laughing when she shot you with nerf guns and used you as punching bags. Girls, thank you for loving on her and braiding her hair back each day. You cannot know what you all mean to us or how incredibly thankful we are for you. We are going to miss you all so very much!

Valerie, our radiation NP, thank you for always smiling and being in a good mood. We owe you a huge thank you for our Muddy’s addiction. Those peanut butter bars might be the death of me. It’s probably good I’m going home!

Dr. Merchant, our amazing radiation oncologist. On our first visit, we as parents felt helpless and out of control. Dr. M and his team restored calm instantly. He didn’t have a magic answer or a cure but he had a plan. He is quiet and unassuming but radiates confidence. He is also an incredibly brilliant. We are so thankful that Kayleigh is under his care.

As you can see we have been blessed with nothing but amazing people on the journey. God has guided every step. He has assigned the perfect people that match our personalities and needs to care for us. As I sit and reflect on just how good God has been it fills my heart to overflowing. Not a single detail went unnoticed. God granted us this amazing team for care and precious new friends for support. He has enlisted an army to pray for us every day. Our every need has been met and we are so thankful.

As we leave our safe bubble of St. Jude we have no idea what the future holds. And yes, that is a little scary. But if God can orchestrate the last 7 weeks so perfectly I am quite certain He can handle the future. It is our job to continue to be faithful. To cover our girl and family in prayer every day. To love life to the fullest and tell of God’s greatness at every opportunity.

Our journey is far from over, it is just turning onto a different road for now. And you know what? I’m looking forward to it. I can’t wait to see the miracles God has in store for all of us, not just Kayleigh. I am expecting HUGE things.

Thank you all for traveling this road with us. For praying. For encouraging. We love you.

Until tonight,
‘Carrow💜

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Hanging out in the craft roomimage

Our awesome radiation teamimage

Saying good-byeimage

The McClendon & Fera crewimage

June 29, 2016

Phase 1 of this journey is rapidly coming to a close. It’s hard to believe it’s been 7 weeks since our world turned upside down. We have finally settled into a normal, comfortable routine. Safe is the word that comes to mind. We have made wonderful friends, Kayleigh is tolerating radiation so well, the doctors believe the tumor is probably responding well because her symptoms are so much better… Safe.

A large part of me would like to stay right here in this happy little bubble for the foreseeable future but I know that isn’t what God has in store for us. Our time in phase 1 is up and it’s time for new adventures, new lessons, more friends, it’s time for change. Tomorrow we will
start packing and loading and Friday we will drive home away from safe – but that is OK. We know that God has a plan

Please continue to pray with us for clear direction for phase 2 and for Kayleigh’s complete healing and no need for phase 2!

Until tomorrow,

‘Carrow💜

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June 28, 2016

Thank you Lord for another wonderful day in Memphis!

Today was radiation treatment #27 of 30 and Kayleigh is feeling great. We met with Kayleigh’s radiation oncologist who has been out of town for the past 3 weeks and he seemed surprised and quite pleased with how good and strong she looks. Tim and I have no idea what “normal” is for this but we get the feeling that Kayleigh is doing very well. At this point the only symptom we see is a slight droop in her right eye – all other symptoms are gone and she is even gaining strength and speed in her movements from when we began. We can do nothing but say thank you Lord for the way He has continued to bless us!

I talk often about how God cares for even the smallest of things – one of those things I have seen in this journey is Kayleigh’s hair. To me, Kayleigh’s hair is far less important than her life. I love her no matter what – if pursuing a treatment that makes her lose her hair saves her life – sign me up. But that is not how Kayleigh feels. The only real breakdown she has had through this entire ordeal was when she realized that she might lose her hair. When that realization struck she was inconsolable. We sat in the bathroom floor together and prayed that Jesus would please help her keep her hair. Every time she woke up during the night we would continue the same prayer. About 3 weeks in to treatment hair started coming out in her hairbrush, more and more each day. I’m not talking about a few strands, I’m talking about clumps every day. But guess what? You won’t be able to tell. How is that possible? I don’t know. It is even a regular topic of discussion with her doctors. Not only can you not tell but the radiation site is not irritated, inflamed, red or itchy. God has shown up for Kayleigh. He has answered her prayer in a clear and tangible way.

It’s things like this that continue to solidify my faith. Brick by brick the Lord has enforced and then reinforced my walls. People will comment that I seem so peaceful, that’s because I am. It isn’t a front that is hiding secret fears, I don’t have any secret fears. I know down to the deepest part of my heart and soul that God is in control. I know that His plan far exceeds anything I could wish or imagine. Knowing that, believing that, trusting that, I have no cause to fear. And in the absence of fear, there is peace.

Something I have not shared on this public stage is that I believe God is going to grant us our requests. My prayers for Kayleigh have been that God will heal her this side of heaven. That her life will not be complete at 7 but that she will have at least 70+7. That she will go to school, go to prom, go to college, get married, have babies, and always love God first. My prayer is that she will be a walking, talking, miracle and that we can give all the glory to God. Given this diagnosis those are some seriously audacious prayers on my part and I know it. I ask God regularly to reassure me that He is really going to grant Kayleigh a full life and every time He responds. Sometimes it’s a verse or message from one of you. Sometimes it is a song on the radio with words that are pointed directly at my heart. Sometimes it’s scripture. But every time He answers.

I have had this post on my heart now for days. It’s a big, scary step of faith to lay such raw belief out for all to see. The human brain is quick to say “what if you’re wrong” to which I have to remind myself, this isn’t about me. It’s not about ME being right, it’s about me being faithful to say what God has placed on my heart to say. Knowing that I was going to write this tonight I decided to have my devotion before writing just for a little extra fortification. My scripture was Jeremiah 1:4-10. I will post all of the verses below, but 7b really hit home “And all that I command you, you shall speak”. If that wasn’t a direct order I don’t know what is.

I believe God is going to heal Kayleigh. On this side of heaven. I believe she is going to have a full life. I believe years from now I am going to have the opportunity to stand on a stage and share my testimony of this journey and have the joy of introducing Kayleigh. If your prayers don’t scare you they aren’t big enough… This one scares me, but my oh my does it fill me with such hope and expectation as well. I’m excited to see what God has in store for us next!

So, tonight I am going to rest well because I know my God is in control. I know he is holding my baby in the palm of His hand, and that He has her best interest at heart. I also know that I have been obedient. I am really looking forward to seeing what God has in store for us. It is going to be awesome!

Please continue to pray with us
1.) Complete healing this side of Heaven.
2.) Finish radiation with no bad side effects.
3.) Be able to lower the steroid dose more this week.
4.) For our friends Anna & Sawyer (and their families) both of which are battling their own, different brain tumors.

Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow 💜

Jeremiah 1:4-10
4 The Lord gave me this message: 5 “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.” 6 “O Sovereign Lord,” I said, “I can’t speak for you! I’m too young!” 7 The Lord replied, “Don’t say, ‘I’m too young,’ for you must go wherever I send you and say whatever I tell you. 8 And don’t be afraid of the people, for I will be with you and will protect you. I, the Lord, have spoken!” 9 Then the Lord reached out and touched my mouth and said, “Look, I have put my words in your mouth! 10 Today I appoint you to stand up against nations and kingdoms. Some you must uproot and tear down, destroy and overthrow. Others you must build up and plant.”

Kayleigh’s miracle hair. Thank you Jesus for answering her prayers!image

Opening treasures – Thank you Aunt Kay!image

Dinner image

Our precious new friendsimage

Love these girls!image