Hello Friends. We’ve had a pretty good day here. Not so sad and that is a big blessing.
Tonight is one of those nights where I sit down and have no idea what to write. It’s so different now. Daily Kayleigh updates made perfect sense. Daily “us” updates seem a little boring. We don’t have the same urgent prayer requests; yet, your prayers are still just as important to us. Honestly, we probably need them now that we have this enormous loss even more than we did when Kayleigh was sick. At least then we had hope for healing. Now, we have hope for heaven. And while I am so very thankful for that hope, it still feels like that is so very far away. That if God grants us with long, full lives, I have another 50-60 years without my precious girl. I know that is no time in the grand scheme of eternity, but from an earthly perspective it seems so long. Such a long time to walk around without a piece of your heart.
And then, I read my devotion. It reminds me of Mary, the mother of Jesus. She didn’t question the Lord’s plan or analyze it from a human perspective, rather she had simple trust. Even though the rest of the world would see her as an unwed mother, she didn’t stray from the course. My prayer for myself and our family tonight was very specific. I prayed that the Lord would take our acute sadness and any self pity – and turn it into joy. Joy for Kayleigh that she has passed through this broken world on to perfect eternity. Joy that she is perfect, whole, and healthy. Joy.
Yes, I will always miss my Baby Duck. But her legacy will live on in the thousands of lives she has touched. Truly, we won’t know the scope of her impact until we reach heaven – but I know that it is wide and far reaching. What a blessing to be allowed to be a part of such a beautiful miracle.
I pray that we will be able to trust like
Mary. Following God’s path no matter what is going on around us or what other people think.
Luke 1:38
38 Mary responded, “I am the Lord’s servant. May everything you have said about me come true.” And then the angel left her.
Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜
