It’s been another good day. A busy day filled with family and friends – what a blessing. One of those friends sent me a song today. Not just any friend, Kayleigh’s teacher this year. It made me cry, but not a bad cry. It just seemed to capture our lives these past 9 months and say everything that is in my heart.
I am copying some of the lyrics below as well as the link to the song. Read these words and then go have a listen. The last verse below is where it got me. The line that says “…here when the healing hasn’t happened yet…” That’s where I am. My heart is still broken, but I don’t doubt my God is here. He knows my hurts and feels my pain. He never leaves me, and always draws me near – overwhelming me with peace.
Thank you Emily Jackson Stipe, this is just what I needed tonight. I’m downloading it now so I can listen often.
Find You Here – Ellie Holcomb
It’s not the news that any of us hoped that we would hear,
It’s not the road we would have chosen, no.
The only thing that we can see is darkness up ahead –
but you’re asking us to lay our worry down and sing a song instead.
And I didn’t know I’d find you here, in the middle of my deepest fear,
but you were drawing near, you were overwhelming me with peace.
So I lift my voice and sing: “You’re gonna carry us through everything!”
You were drawing near, you’re overwhelming all my fears with peace.
You say that I should come to you with everything I need.
You’re asking me to thank you even when the pain is deep.
You promise that you’ll come and meet us on the road ahead.
And no matter what the fear says, you give me a reason to be glad.
And I didn’t know I’d find you here, in the middle of my deepest fear,
but you were drawing near me, you were overwhelming me with peace.
So I lift my voice and sing: “You’re gonna carry me through everything.”
You were drawing near, you’re overwhelming all my fear.
Here in the middle of the lonely night, here in the middle of the losing fight,
you’re here in the middle of the deep regret, here when the healing hasn’t happened yet.
Here in the middle of the desert place, here in the middle when I cannot see your face,
Here in the middle with your outstretched arms, you can see my pain and it breaks your heart.
Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜