Philippians 4:19
19 And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
How amazing it is to be cared for by a God that loves us and tends our every need. Recently I was talking with the Lord, sharing by hurts. Most days truly are good days. But there are times, often at night, when I am tired, my guard is down, and grief just comes crashing through. As I sat on my bed with tears streaming down my face I told the Lord that I understood His plan was perfect. That I would never want Kayleigh to return to this broken earth when she is perfect and happy in heaven. But even knowing those things doesn’t make me miss her less. The emptiness of my arms is just overwhelming. I told the Lord, “All I want to do is hold her face. Trace her nose and brows like I used to do to help her sleep. Kiss her precious head and hold her face in my hands.” All I want is the impossible.
Move forward a couple of days. I am in Kayleigh’s room trying to go through some of the things we have accumulated over these months and put away things from Memphis. As I am in the depths of her closet I touch something strange. As I uncover everything and pull it out the tears begin to flow. From the bottom of Kayleigh’s closet I pulled the desire of my heart. It was Kayleigh’s face.
Her radiation mask to be exact, but it is her perfect little face resting in the palm of my hands. I sat in the floor of her room, closed my eyes, and ran my fingers down the bridge of her nose, around her eyes, across her brows. I could feel every bit of her profile. I could kiss her head. God answered my impossible request.
Honestly, I sold the Lord short. I told Him what I wanted but I never expected Him to actually answer the request. To my human mind it was an impossible request that had no way to be answered. This would be a prime example of how the Lord continues to answer my prayers in the most unimaginable ways. The desire of my heart was to touch Kayleigh’s face, and He provided me a way to ease my heart.
Tonight as you go to bed are you selling the Lord short? Are you not asking Him for something because it seems ridiculously impossible? Psalm 37:4 says
“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.” If you are doing your part, serving the Lord, walking His path for you, taking delight in Him, His word tells us He will give us the desires of our hearts. Not only that, God will take care of you better than you can imagine and bless you infinitely more than you can think or ask. What a gracious, compassionate father we serve.
Ephesians 3:20
20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜
All I wanted was to hold this face…
And this was how God granted the desire of my heart 💜