A month… It’s hard to believe it’s been a month since Kayleigh was diagnosed. So much has happened in that short time period, more things really than I can even begin to list. As I sit back and reflect it is awesome to see God’s hand in every detail. Sometimes I think we forget that God cares about everything. We go to Him about the big things, we go when we have no other hope, too often He is our last resort – but He doesn’t want to be our last resort, He wants to be where we go first. Each detail of our lives matter to God. When we take the time to talk to Him and listen for His direction we exchange our worry for His peace. If you stop right there – and really think about that for a minute – it’s a little mind boggling.
I wish I had better words to describe the way our relationship with Jesus grants Tim and I peace through all of this. We can see the storm raging all around us, we are completely aware of what the doctors are telling us; and yet, we are not concerned. We are not afraid. In fact, we are filled with more joy than we have ever experienced. Joy. Peace. Faith. Trust. God is pouring all of that and so much more into us each day. We are living day-by-day, treasuring every moment – and man oh man is God giving us moments to treasure.
We have no idea what God has in store for us or for Kayleigh, and you know what? That is ok. We know that He is going to work everything for good and that His plan is far superior to anything we can even think to ask for. So, we are going to continue to center ourselves in Christ, drawing our strength from Him. We are going to continue to pray for our precious girl, for miraculous healing – believing that He is able. We are going to continue to research and plan for phase 2 all the while praying that phase 2 isn’t necessary. And while we do these things we are going to rest peacefully knowing God has everything under control.
Joshua 1:9
“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Matthew 5:36
But Jesus overheard them and said to Jairus, “Don’t be afraid. Just have faith.”
Tonight I had planned to write a lighter hearted post but it seems God had different plans. I pray that if this is something you needed to hear tonight that you are encouraged, that your heart is renewed. I pray that you have the peace that comes from knowing Jesus.
Prayer requests:
1.) Complete healing this side of heaven!
2.) Continuation of improved symptoms and no bad side effects. We will hopefully take the last steroid pill tomorrow morning!
3.) Safe travels and a clear path back to Memphis tomorrow.
4.) For the path for phase 2 to become clear but that it won’t be needed!!
Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜
P. S. – attached are my lighter hearted pictures.
Kayleigh asked to wear her princess dress to church this morning. I started to say no – but really, life is too short. If you have a princess dress you should wear it!
And her high heels – if you’re going to be a princess you’ve got to wear the shoes (even if you do have a brain tumor that messes with your balance)!
Just keep your brother close to hold you steady!