Happy Fall, Friends! It’s actually starting to get a little cooler here in the Deep South which is VERY welcome.
Grace had a softball tournament today and it was finally cool enough for Kayleigh to get to go watch a little. We had hoped to be able to watch at least the first two games but Kayleigh woke with a headache and stomach ache this morning so we only made it to part of one game. She enjoyed getting to be at the park, but her stomach was relentlessly painful today so she had to cut it short.
The headache also made multiple appearances today which is unsettling. None were terrible but they were enough to slow her down a little. Thankfully they were not constant, just come and go. Her walking is also getting much more labored and she is relying on her wheelchair more. It’s difficult for her to climb up in my car, and her hearing is fading a little. When you start putting all of those things together it is quite unsettling. And for her to feel so terrible on top of everything I honestly don’t know what to do.
Times like this it is easy to get worried, concerned, or sad. We had such good news after the last scan, I had really thought we would see more improvement. I was eagerly anticipating God’s miracle. And yet here I sit, 1.5 weeks after that scan and God is not answering my prayers as I had hoped He would. As I though He would. And the enemy is using that to try to create doubt in my heart and mind from all angles.
Perhaps this is an intense, crash-course on taking negative thought captive and turning them over to God. Or maybe it’s a test to build my faith or increase my trust. Or even more likely it is preparation for the future that I can’t even guess. Whatever it is, I would certainly appreciate you prayers for strength and wisdom. Strength to keep fighting and staying positive and wisdom to understand and follow God’s direction.
Our sweet girl still needs tummy, head, steroid weaning, anxiety, and healing prayers. We know God is able. Even with everything we are seeing with Kayleigh right now, we know nothing is too big for God.
Thank you for your prayers. You cannot know how much it helps to be able to lay all these feelings out in the open and know that they will be covered in prayer. We know our strength comes from God, but we also know that often times He uses many of you to encourage us.
Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜
I’m thankful that even though we are in a season of waiting, I know God is on the move!
Tim’s company had these shirts made…
And then everyone wore them to the company picnic! We are to blessed to be so loved!
My big girl doing her thing!