Hello Friends,
Kayleigh has had a slightly better day. Her stomach did hurt a bit, but not until late in the afternoon. Which means she had a pretty good morning, and that was wonderful. She’s had a good attitude all day as well which makes her fun too. Sadly, she did have headaches pop up twice today. A little worse than yesterday and lingering. Those rattle me more than everything else.
If you’ve followed our journey for a while you may remember me posting that I believe that the Lord is going to spare Kayleigh. I am thankful for the peace God grants me as I pray each day for healing this side of heaven. Yet, days like today rattle my resolve. Not because anything particularly terrible has taken place, but because I can see Kayleigh slipping a little each day – in all areas.
She can no longer walk or stand alone. She needs assistance to use the restroom. She has begun to get choked on water. She is losing hearing capabilities. Her speech is slurred. And as all of those are becoming more and more apparent, my heart breaks a little more. This is my precious baby – a piece of my heart walking around outside my body. Watching her decline and having no recourse with which to make anything better has to be the most difficult thing I have faced in my life.
This is when I wish I knew what God’s plan was. What’s coming around the bend sure would be nice to know. Yet, that isn’t how God works. It’s not my job to know, it’s my job to follow and obey. And to pray – always pray. And while I am so thankful God gives me peace sometimes it’s hard to cling to the hope of healing when things look bleak.
Tonight sweet friends, this mom needs your prayers as well as Kayleigh. I’m tired and a little weepy. Thankful for each treasured moment I have yet praying for so many more. Tim is sick on top of everything else so that adds a little to the strain. We know God is at the helm, and none of this surprises Him. We also know that when you all activate your prayer chains we see God work in wonderful ways.
Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜