October 31, 2016

Hello friends, I hope you all have had a pleasant evening of kids in cute costumes and handing out candy. Kayleigh has been looking forward to dressing up for weeks. Ever since she came up with the idea of all the cousins being the Scooby Doo Crew. I am so thankful we did the church Trunk or Treat last week because she was not up to participating tonight.

Unfortunately, Kayleigh had a very rough day today. She woke with a terrible headache that would persist all day. Even regular doses of high powered pain medicine would not keep it away. Along with the headache comes vomiting and sleepiness. She battled like a champion, without complaint, all day.

We invited our church small group over to help hand out candy and let the kids trick or treat. They were great to keep people off the front porch so Max wouldn’t go bananas and Kayleigh could keep resting. Our sweet girl was able to say hello and good bye but she was a little groggy and her speech became more and more difficult to understand the more tired she became. But even with all of that, any time someone asked how she was she always answered “good.”

Even after a hard day I can still say thank you Lord for your goodness and mercy. Kayleigh’s breathing is better tonight and her color is better than it has been. I had a sweet friend come sit quietly and pray with me today, just what I needed – water for my weary soul. I was reminded as we prayed today that God is bigger than this diagnosis. For the last few days I have wrestled from grief, to anguish, to surrender, to peace. I have reached a place where I know if God chooses to call Kayleigh home, that it will be because He intends to use her death as a means to draw others to His side. Oh that any of us could say we have the same legacy. And while my spirit is at peace with that, today I remembered that I promised I would continue to pray for healing for as long as Kayleigh has breath.

Guess what? Kayleigh still has breath. God is still God. And while I am willing to let go of her to fulfill His plan in her life – I am not giving up. I am praying that she is my Isaac. That God will find me willing – that He will stay his hand and spare her life. And if He is so good to do that we will gladly offer a sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving for as long as we have breath. So prayer warriors, I ask you to hit your knees. I ask for you to pray with an expectant heart for a miracle only God can do. I ask you to pray for remarkable. Remarkable, unexplainable, miraculous healing.

And no matter how God chooses to answers our prayers, we will CHOOSE to bless His name. Because His ways are better than ours and we trust Him completely.

Hebrews 13:14-15
14 For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come. 15 Therefore, let us offer through Jesus a continual sacrifice of praise to God, proclaiming our allegiance to his name.

Ephesians 3:20-21
20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. 21 Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen.

Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜