October 4, 2016

Hello Prayer Warriors. We need you tonight. Kayleigh has had a very difficult day. Intense headaches and inter cranial pressure which induce vomiting have appeared again. It is a possibility that it is from warning the steroids but honestly, her oncologist doesn’t think so. She is on such a small dose that he doesn’t think it would cause this kind of issue. He did not put into words what he did think it could be, but in this situation the options are few. Progression, of course, being our greatest concern.

The day has been filed with the terrible headaches and unfortunately, the stomach has been extremely painful as well. As a mother, there are few things more difficult than watching your baby suffer and having absolutely no ability to make it better. All I can do is hold her, love her, and continue to pray fervently over her. Calling out in distress, asking Him to grant her relief. Asking for continued peace. Asking for a miracle. And even now, when my heart is broken for this baby I love so dearly, I do not doubt my God.

I cannot pretend to understand. Tears stream down my face as I write this, but none the less, my God is good. And I love Him dearly. I trust Him completely. And even in my anguish, He grants me peace. So tonight dear friends, me need your prayers. We need you to raise the roof in heaven asking for a miracle on Kayleigh’s behalf. She needs relief from pain.

I know God is not done with us yet. He still has plenty of story left for all of us. And today, no matter what, is a good day – because I spent the day with my precious girl, treasuring each moment. Tears, yes. But joy too. Thank you Jesus for every minute.

Jonah 2:2
He said, “I cried out to the Lord in my great trouble, and he answered me. I called to you from the land of the dead, and Lord, you heard me!

2 Samuel 22:7
But in my distress I cried out to the Lord; yes, I cried to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry reached his ears.

Psalm 120:1
I took my troubles to the Lord; I cried out to him, and he answered my prayer.

1 Peter 2:24
He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right. By his wounds you are healed.

As my daddy said tonight, standing knee deep in hand grenade pins is all the more reason to keep on pulling the pins. We knew this was a big fight when we started so we’ll keep fighting, keep pulling the pins and fighting with all we are. The stakes are too high not to.

Until tomorrow,
‘Carrow💜